WHAT A TURN OF EVENTS

 So profesionally when something good happen it feels amazing, mystical and magical event.

But when something goes wrong it feels like its personal, what a hard situation to manage, truly but I have to remain professional.

I got booked on a film because an actor's visa didn’t come through, had the whole thing, the tears, the telling family, the sense of everything. 2 days later i got told his visa did come through, and that I'm out. Basically I'm not out they got me doing rhearsals with the cast and meeting everyone as if I'm the actor but I feel like a glorified stand in, but I have to remember what my job is, I have to be useful and do what im getting paid for.

It just feels hard, like this is challenging enough, i have to swallow a character with 3 days of warning while the other actors have been prepping for 2 months I just have to go go go.

Im used to it and its the nature of the craft but why does it feel like its always on me, I always have to bend backwards and do the impossible even in plays.

But im thankful im meeting some of the best actors I've ever met, nothign but thankful.