Im back.

 I didn’t think it was actually a whole year. I haven't been here since April of 2025, and now it's May of the following year. It seems everyone knows this is good for me; my brother knew it was a hit and kept telling me to write over the year. And who knows, maybe it would've gone great, but what's done is done, and I'm here now.

Over the past year, I think I've been able to get back to myself. I keep saying that, but it's not constructive language for me to use, because I'll never be the person I was. So much has happened to me; I've lived too much in comparison. I'd be futile if I were the same.

I got my first feature film as a lead, I also executive produced, I owned a bit, and it was all because I knew how to negotiate because of a class I took in LA, but mainly cause of my nationality. The whole movie happened because of where I was born; no other factor was as prominent in my life as that one. Then the moment came when I had to prove who I was. I had so much to learn, and at first, I had the worst impostor syndrome of all time. I'm not even from here, I've never lived here, and a bunch of other bullshit, but I knew I was just being weak. I immersed myself and made myself fall in love and understand the Honduran, lo estudie, lo memorice y lo amo con todo mi corazon. It's a crazy thing this job I have, and I forget that this is what the blog was all about, acting, not Emi's life, but somehow every time I come on here, I talk about work when trying to express myself. That's why it's so dangerous, because as an actor I'm so personally intertwined with what I show people, what it looks like when I'm working, and how I can work in situations just to get out of them. But it's probably also why I love it, I can use my laugh as a tool, and my face, my stillness, and everything else, but I can use it against myself as well. So dangerous, because success feels personal, everything does, what isn't emotional, but I can dissect it, stare, and take the steps to solve, but still feel the feeling. 

I've been putting off looking inside myself now, maybe because I've been lost during 2025, but I feel whatever's coming is good. Work ain't strong right now, but it'll pick up, it always does.

I love what I have now, I want to become a more Godly man that I can be, and I can be a leader. I work on mind, body, soul, art and love and I'm unstoppable. I really do want this life for me.

Let's do it.