A Sad day on the bed of the lazy of the laziest monday

A day full of nothing, after closing two weeks of performance, with the last one being the sloppiest, i feel overwhelmingly mixed with emotions. Wanting to make this for a long time to track how i feel, tell what is real.

im sad because the play is over, i got so close to so many people just to not interact with them as often. I hope i rubbed off, at least a little. Such an excruciating play, a play where my legs hurt with every stretch and cramped every time i died, making it feel like actual pain. I loved it, not acting, the challenge of doing good, regardless of the result, leaving it all on the floor, not pending like i did, or just telling myself that because im tired. Actually pushing myself, to physically not be able to do again, then doing it again, that’s why i loved it.

Im happy because maybe change is closer in my life than i think, than what’s planned.

im grateful for all the people i have in my life as well as all the resources and love.

nervous to shoot this film, and show my ass, but everything is always new, and it will be like that for a long time. And that’s ok, learning is awesome, and i will continue.

i need more focus, and discipline, talent will take me very far but more do, and less thinking is required now, along with patience.