Just another day

 We have to remember that the world keeps moving and that everyone will make their own decisions no matter what. It's cool to think about what could have been, but that's not what is, so don't fantasize about it.

Similarly last night someone just DMed me asking for a monologue or something longer than my reel; she is casting for a narrative film. So at 2am, I shot two contrasting monologues, but as I was saying them, I noticed I was married to choices. This monologue is from Sweat, talking about how guilty I am for accidentally killing the bartender. This audition got me into college, but I was doing the same thing, I noticed, and the biggest thing is to call yourself out on bullshit. I caught it.

And I spent like another hour just working the monologue, contacting the images of what happened, who I was talking to, why I was talking, why the words needed to come out of my character. It takes a minute for it to drop in, but once you work with the moment before, it allows it to happen much faster. I'mm saying that we do things at some point in our life and they work, and it's great and keep working. Eventually, you have to try something different cause it won't work forever, but don't be sad if it doesn't work anymore. Be happy that you get to experience both versions of it and that you can notice growth.   

Also I beat the ender dragon with Leo it was awesome.

and i got unblocked sooooo its sober timeski.